Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts

7.02.2013

Yudisium, Kahlil Gibran, dan Lagu Dangdut

Seperti yang saya ceritakan sebelumnya, I've been graduated. 
Meskipun belum wisuda pake toga, tapi sudah wisuda fakultas (yudisium).

Ada beberapa hal yang mengesankan waktu acara yudisium kemarin.
Yang pertama, puisi Kahlil Gibran yang dibacakan sama dekan sastra.

Anak-anakmu bukanlah anak-anakmu
Mereka adalah anak-anak kehidupan yang rindu akan dirinya sendiri
Mereka terlahir melalui engkau tapi bukan darimu
Meskipun mereka ada bersamamu tapi mereka bukan milikmu

Pada mereka engkau dapat memberikan cintamu, tapi bukan pikiranmu
Karena mereka memiliki pikiran mereka sendiri

Engkau bisa merumahkan tubuh-tubuh tapi bukan jiwa mereka,
Karena jiwa-jiwa itu tinggal di rumah hari esok, yang tak pernah dapat engkau kunjungi meskipun dalam mimpi

Engkau bisa menjadi seperti mereka, tapi jangan coba menjadikan mereka sepertimu
Karena hidup tidak berjalan mundur dan tidak pula berada di masa lalu

Engkau adalah busur-busur tempat anak-anakmu menjadi anak-anak panah yang hidup diluncurkan

Sang pemanah telah membidik arah keabadian, dan ia meregangkanmu dengan kekuatannya sehingga anak-anak panah itu dapat meluncur dengan cepat dan jauh

Jadikanlah tarikan tangan sang pemanah itu sebagai kegembiraan
Sebab ketika ia mencintai anak-anak panah yang terbang, maka ia juga mencintai busur yang telah diluncurkannya dengan sepenuh kekuatan.

- Kahlil Gibran
Mengenaaa banget puisi Kahlil Gibran ini.

My dean was gorgeous, tau mahasiswanya udah sendu membik-membik, eh Beliaunya nyanyi dangdut full action, judulnya "Gala-Gala" hahahahaa.
Sir, you're so adorableeee!

Fakultas Sastra UM itu emang deh ya, paling mbooooooiiiiiiiis!

8.10.2012

Ayah


Hari ini tanggal 9 Agustus. Baru keinget ayah lahir tanggal 8 Agustus. He should have been 52 years old by yesterday.
And it's been 15 years after he just passed away.
Never called him 'ayah' anymore.
I don't even remember the feeling of having a father.
I was 6 when he passed away.
Was I sad at that time? No. I even laughed.
Never knew I will feel this miserable feeling.
Never know I will be this sad missing him so badly.

Ayah, apa kabar disana?
Do'aku cukupkah untukmu?
Kangen yah.
Aku kangen ayah...
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8.06.2012

Hati yang Baru

"Seseorang yang bijak selalu meyakini kalimat: Tidak semua orang mendapatkan pilihan pertama dalam hidup ini. Tapi kita bisa hidup sama bahagianya dengan mereka, meski hanya mendapatkan pilihan kedua, ketiga, atau bahkan keseratus-satu."


"Sejatinya kalimat bijak itu bukan tentang urutan-urutan, tentang nomor-nomor, tentang perbandingan-perbandingan. Sejatinya kalimat bijak itu tentang: Kita semua berkesempatan menjadikan pilihan kita selalu menjadi "pilihan yang pertama". Hanya masalahnya kita mau atau tidak. Kita bersedia atau tidak. Itu saja."


--Tere Liye--


Mungkin saya hanya pengganti sebagian hatinya yang telah rusak, karena alasan tertentu. Mungkin saya juga hanya pilihan yang kesekian. Tapi toh saya tetap berhak bahagia dan tetap akan bisa bahagia, dengannya, pilihan pertama saya...



8.04.2012

They are absolutely CUTE!

7th semester, new challenges are just waiting!
And now I got my chance to have internship program :)
Lucky me I got a great place to do my internship program, and it was SMPN 21 Malang :D

Gurunya asik, ramah, baik. Muridnya juga cantik, ganteng, pinter :)
A perfect place? Yes! A nice students? Not really :|

Jadi ceritanya saya dapet kesempatan pegang kelas 8-8 gitu. Guru pamong saya kasi kesempatan buat masing-masing kelas pilih guru PPL yang ngajar mereka, and they chose me! Yey! :D

First impression, hmmm, nice class :)
Tapi ada salah satu murid cantik yang ga bawa buku dan pinjem buku saya, saya pinjemin ajalah. Eh, taunya anak yang ga bawa buku biasany dapet hukuman :| saya gatau sih, langsung berasa ga adil :|

Hari pertama ngajar kemaren tanggal 27 Juli 2012, hari Jumat, jam 1-2.
Sempet nervous, tangan dingin gitu deh. Untungnya 2 temen PPL, Pak Alfian sama Pak Satria, mau saya ajakin nemenin ngajar :D
And at the end of my teaching, Alfian said I should have be firmer.
Ok then, the point grasped!

Berawal dari pengalaman hari pertama, I have kind of high expectation to my students.
Kesalahannya adalah saya ga berpikir ulang kalo saya bakal ngajar di jam terakhir pas hari Rabu tanggal 1 Agustus 2012 kemarin.
Dan menjadi liarlah mereka. Gimana lagi, pas puasaan, jam terakhir pula. 'Pengen cepet pulang' aja pasti yang ada di otak :|
Parahnya saya sama sekali ga nyiapin games buat narik perhatianny mereka, daaaan rusaklah suasana :D
Catatan pentingnya adalah, siapin games sebanyak mungkin kalo ngajar di jam terakhir.

Ngajar hari selanjutnya cuma 1 jam pelajaran, 30 menit kalo itungan jam puasa. Ga ngapa2in deh, I just explained them about our new reward rule :)
Anak-anak lumayan excited sih, tapi tetep aja belom tau cari ngendaliin tenaga mereka yang berlebih buat ngobrol itu -_________-

Hari Jumat saya dapet kesempatan ngajar di jam 1-2. Enak! Masih fresh, belom terlalu mikirin pulang, dll :)
Saya ajakin bahas soal aja deh, sekalian memberlakukan new reward rule ;)
Dan juga maen "spelling bee" :D
Awalny seru banget,  tapi berakhir dengan frustasinya anak2 karena ga berhasil nebak spelling yang bener hahahaa :D

They are really cute to the bone!!! :D

7.29.2012

A Little Memory


this afternoon, i'm happened to remember a small scene of my life.
it was about me and my boyfriend,
we had a quarrel, i dont even remember the problem now, but after a while having a quarrel via cellphone, he decided to go to my boarding house

i was so scared at that time, i turned my head down, i didn't wanna see his eyes
but he smile, holding my hand and bought me an ice cream
he continue holding my hand, lead me to take a walk for a while around small path near my boarding house
i continued to turned my head down and hold my tears.

then he ask me to sit down in a terrace of a closed-shop near my boarding house
i cried alot there, he sit still, watching me crying and enjoying his ice cream
he just wait me finishing my tears, without saying anything, it means alot like "i'll be here still" :)
he waited till i finished and ask "why you cry?"
and i was stupidly crying again :D
i love him :)

his expression at that time is just running around my mind :))

7.21.2012

Jaman Extra Kepo Kuadrat

Pagi ini ngecek twitter dan ada twit dari Dynni yang bikin inget masa lalu.
Jadi pernah nih pas jamannya lagi kepo banget, bukan deh, extra kepo kuadrat, kita nangis2 ga ngebolehin kakak tingkat kita pacaran sama adek tingkat. Apa banget coba -_-

Pertama kenal semua tokoh dalam ke-kepoan itu gara gara kita sama sama ikut OSIS. Duh malu banget nih sebenernya diceritain, tapi yaudalah, biar jadi memento di masa tua #tsaah.

Waktu itu kita kelas dua. Emm, lagi baru naik kelas gitu sih. Lagi happening banget anak kelas 1 SMA yang baru masuk. Kita lumayan terkenal tuh kayaknya waktu itu. Soalnya kita yang pegang MOSnya anak kelas 1. Nah, tersangka utama di sini adalah ketua OSISnya. Let's say he had a crush with a new girl. Ga masalah sih ya sebenernya. Tapi bagi kita (saya, dynni, getha) mas ketua OSIS (Ketos )ini deserve someone better than her. 

Yang salah si getha ini kayaknya. Dia yang ngompor2in gitu dulu, soalnya si getha ini dulu kakak kelasnya si anak yang jadi crush'ny mas Ketos waktu masih di SMP. Nah, berbekal cerita random dari getha itu, kita ngambek deh ke mas Ketos.

And you know what? Yang paling menjijikkan adalah suatu kali kita pernah kumpul berlima di SO (Sekretariat OSIS) buat bahas 'betapa tidak pantasnya mas Ketos jadian sama adek kelas dan don't try to going out with her or we'll hate you'. Kepo banget kan?
masih inget banget dulu yang ada di ruangan itu cuma saya, dynni, getha, Mas Ketos sama Mas Ian. 

Kita marah-marah banget deh waktu itu, kita jelek-jelekin si adek baru itu. Sampe nangis lho. SAMPE NANGIS!!!! Gila emang. Ababil tingkat dewa. Satu-satunya yang masih waras cuma Mas Ian. Mas Ketos akhirnya keluar dari ruangan sambil banting pintu. Dan Mas Ian yang nenangin kita. Kita duduk di samping mas Ian gitu, nyender, di belai-belai, di omongin baik-baik kalo kita uda salah neken mas Ketos kayak gitu. Berasa adek kakak yang keluar dari rahim yang sama deh pokoknya.

Hahhahahaha.
Sumpah malu sendiri kalo inget jaman dulu. Cuma denger dari satu mulut aja uda berani kayak gitu. Padahal kita dulu belom kenal secara deket sama adek kelas itu. *sigh*
Dan akhirnya, kita malah jadi deket sama si adek kelas gara gara dia ikutan OSIS juga.
Hmmmm. What a life ya?

Segila apapun jaman itu, setidaknya saya masih bisa ketawa kalo inget yang dulu dulu :D
Maafin ye mas Ketos :))
Can hold my smile, you know ;)

7.14.2012

sajak hati kecil


banyak hal yang tak terkata
dan kau berharap dia mendengarnya?
hahaaa kau kira dia ilusionis? kau kira dia dukun?
tak kan bisa dia tau bila tak kau katakan
lalu kau berharap kepekaan pada hari kelabumu?
hey, tak hanya kau yang punya masalah
katamu dia egois, apa telah kau pikir apa yang ada di benaknya?
bangun anak manja!
hidup mengajarimu berbagai hal lewat tiap masalah yang menghadang
tak juga habiskah keluh kesahmu?
sakit hati? sembuhkan sakit hatimu sendiri
sebab tak ada yang peduli
dan kau berharap belas kasihan pada sosok itu?
cih! mereka sedang mendongak, dan kau terlalu berjarak
diam sajalah kau disini
tunggu sajalah kesempatanmu
belajarlah dari mereka di sekelilingmu
pilihlah yang bagus, buanglah yang buruk

7.13.2012

My Comforter, My Werewolf

the one I think of
Mmm, gatau gimana mulainya.
Foto digambar itu adalah foto orang yang mendampingi saya belakangan ini.
Gantengkah? Jelekkah? Well, I don't care what you are thinking.
But, all I know is he is the best for me.

Namanya Panji Witoko. Tipikal orang yang bisa bikin orang ketawa pas pertama kali ketemu. Tipikal orang yang bisa mencairkan suasana. Orang yang ga akan menunjukkan seberapa bingung atau kalutnya dia dihadapan orang lain, kecuali bener-bener terpaksa. Dia ini juga orang yang saya sadari bisa amat sangat lembut, murah hati, penyabar tapi bisa juga langsung berubah jadi orang yang keras, gamau dengerin orang lain, kasar, pemarah.

Masih sama, mikirin apa yang uda saya lewatin bareng orang ini selalu aja bikin saya senyum. But, once a while when we have a quarrel, hmmm, i don't even interested in eating anything and it will be hard for me even to sleep. Iya sih lebay emang kelihatannya ya, alay. Tapi emang kenyataannya gitu sih.

And you know what, that picture I show you was taken on November 27 2010. It's been a while ternyata. Tapi dia masih sama, masih buku yang ga bisa habis saya baca.

Dengan perumpamaan bahwa dia adalah buku, mungkin bisa di bilang saya baca buku itu langsung di halaman tengahnya. Dan seiring saya membaca buku itu, kadang ceritanya meminta saya untuk kembali ke halaman awal dan membaca sedikit cerita disana, sebelum akhirnya kembali ke halaman tengah yang belum habis juga saya baca. It's like, I didn't  know what happen to him in the past, and I don't even know what will happen to him in the future.

Kemarin waktu liat film India yang judulnya "I Hate Love Story", saya nemu kutipan yang bagus, kira-kira kayak gini, 'Jodoh itu kayak bis, satu pergi yang lainnya datang. Tapi diantara semua bis itu, cuma satu yang bisa nganter kamu pulang. Dan kamu ga boleh kehilangan bis itu karena bis lainnya ga berguna, cuma satu bis itu aja yang penting'

Sometimes he said that I'm too possessive. Maybe he just right, I myself is typically a person who often think too much. Too worried, and others bad 'too'. I myself realize that there are so many things i have to make up. 

To my comforter, so sorry if I cannot be your perfect comforter yet.
Cepet sembuh sayaaaang :)

my werewolf and me - December 5 2010

sleep over in a train

Kami punya banyak panggilan satu sama lain. Kadang saya panggil dia werewolf. Kenapa? Karena dia, gatau gimana, badannya hangat terus menerus. Pernah suatu kali tangan saya uda dingin banget gitu, eh tangan dia malah anget banget. He is a warmth.

Bagi saya, dia rumah kedua. Dia bikin saya nyaman, dia bikin saya ngerasa aman. Dia bikin saya ketawa, dia bikin saya nangis, dia bikin saya cemberut, dia bikin saya jadi lebih pemberani, dia ajarin saya cara kontrol emosi, cara jadi orang santai tapi tetep waspada. 

He is the one I tell both happiness and sadness...

Should I say it? I love him, indeed :)

7.11.2012

Cry

"Weird is when you cry and you don't have any idea why you are crying."

But, maybe for someone like me, crying is just a way to let anything sad go away from my heart. Crying is when I cannot make myself strong anymore. Cry is when I try to have a new self defend for this mean world.

Perhaps for some people cry is just a sign of how weak we are. But you know, i don't care. Cz when I cry, I feel a bit relieved. Do I need someone to hear me? Maybe yes. But when I be this crying-a-river-woman, what I need is a time to be alone. Or a shoulder to cry maybe hahahaa


Maafkan saya nyampah

A month to go. Just a month. Need to lay my head on his shoulder and cry. No no, maybe actually what I need is just my mom.
This month is exactly so hard to pass. Soooo many things wait me, they want to tear me apart a guess hahahaa

It start from a job that i expect to much.
In short, I join a ghost writer or something like that. I did hard work in my holiday for it. And you know what, he, the owner, don't pay me yet till now.
I gave him a trust, but I fell. Maybe that's easy for you to say something like "let it go", but hey! I worked! I didn't do that work for charity or something like that.
So I want my salary to be paid.
It's so sad, you know. Almost everyday I slept in the midnite just to finish my work, but you see, that owner is just suck!

The second thing is about my internship program. So many things happened, irresponsible friends, uncooperative team, and things like that.
Then in the night when I need my bf, he has been tired of everyday working or he has a plan to go out with his friends.
OK, then. Let me manage myself :)
God gives me time not to relay on anyone.
Oh God, I miss my mom so bad :))

6.19.2012

H.O.L.I.D.A.Y

Well, I'm in my holiday from May 16 until July 2.
Is that long? No. Actually I should get my holiday till August 27 if I don't have any internship program. But, that's long enough to be enjoyed of course :D

So, I tried to spend my holiday well absolutely.
Like in May 16, I went to Balikpapan-East Borneo to pick up my boyfriend. It was kind of long journey cause that was my first flight, and I was alone -_____-
But that was fun! Like trying to pretend as if I've had many flight before (thanks to Lita) :D


I was so glad can meet him after 4 months *_*
How many days I spend there? Of course just a day :D
I and my boyfriend had a flight back to Juanda at 8.30 pm BUT it was delayed till 2 am in the next day. Oh, MAAANNN!!!
But thanks God I could landed safely :)
No pics sorry :P

Then guys, do you know Lawang Sewu? Sam Poo Kong?
I just went there yesterday! :D
Yes! I went to Semarang with my Mom and brother.
It was also really fun!
Let me show off the pics :D

it was me, my lil brother, and my cousins

the lawang sewu's doors - a nice spot to take a shoot

the only lady was me ;)

my mom and my aunty :)))

me - trying a costume - but not good in me :(

china? hongkong? no. semarang :)

nice, right?
Make a time for you to get there, pals!
Those are great places to visit :)

5.06.2012

Foto Orang Nikah

Abis liat foto orang nikah yang di share di grup FB. Langsung berasa kayak "kapan ya giliranku?"
Hahahahaa.
Gak lah. Ini bukan tentang ngebet pengen nikah ato gimana, cuma mulai ngerasa kalo hidup itu terus ngalir ga berasa dan tiba-tiba kita uda ada di titik ini, ngeliat anak-anak SD, SMP, SMA kesannya mereka alay banget.
Liat guru-guru SMA uda pada ganti, liat artis-artis di tivi ternyata seumuran kita, liat temen-temen uda pada berhasil, dll.
Tiba-tiba sadar bahwa sekarang waktunya angkatan kita yang 'megang', yang berjaya, yang .. ah udahlah.

Jadi, apa sih yang uda kita lakuin?
Uda kerjakah? Punya usaha sendirikah? Masi cengeng kah? Masi sering bersikap kayak drama quenn kah?

5.01.2012

U NO NEED TO READ THIS !!!

Hmmmm.
I've been trying to be positive thinking. And at last I feel like I have been succeeded. BUT this night I just feel like there is NO NEED to be positive thinking.

Then, one of my besties called me. And I was just like bursting about many things that crossed my mind. About him, about having two cell phone, about marriage, about egoistic, graduation day, and many things.

She is the one that always can calm me down with her own way which is absolutely different with myself. And I just crying listening her giving  me many advises. Because deep down inside, I know that she was right, that what she said is really make sense.

And now I feel like worried :(
It was terrible that I cannot tell what is crossing my mind :(
Waiting for the time when I can meet him, or at least can HE read this post.
*the first possibility is 1000000000000% bigger than the second one

4.28.2012

Plagiat


Just want to make you remember.
We really have to be careful with the word so called PLAGIARISM.

Just now I visit a blog of a teenager I know (sorry, no clue!).

It is nice knowing a teenager starts to write, because as you know, Indonesia needs many writers and readers to be better.
However, I was so sad knowing some of his/her writing is not purely written by him/herself.
Some is just copying from others without including the real author's name, or at least giving the source of the data. Another sad thing is that he/she gave their name in the end of post so that it seems like it made by themselves.

How can I know that it was a copy paste? Because I read and know that post like a thousand times and they just like put "BY BLABLABLA". Does it sound weird for you?

It is sad to realize many teenager do no know yet that they have to avoid those kind of things :(


4.26.2012

The Pressure and The Joy for being a YOUTH

Well, I'm in the very end of sixth semester.
There are soooooooo many assignmentsss, final projects, presentations and so on which are waiting for me to be taken care -_____________-

Let me have a list of that stuff:

  • Cross Cultural Understanding: final project is in progress, its 10% done, due date will be on April 30, 2012
  • Basic Poetry Studies: there will be final exam in the form of analyzing poem. seems like the due date will be on May 14, 2012
  • Basic Analysis of Drama: there will be drama performance on May 7, 2012. And I'm not memorized the script yet
  • Thesis Proposal Seminar: the thesis proposal has to be submitted on the May 10, 2012. still 5% done
  • Syntax: the final exam will be on May 15, 2012
  • Classroom management: the final paper have to be submitted on May 1, 2012
  • Languange Assessment Development: there are still like 100 questions need to be created. The due is on  May 15, 2012
  • Coursebook Evaluation: the final paper+presentation are 90% done. the due date will be on May (dont know the absolute date)
  • English for Spesific Purposes: ga jelas
  • Filsafat Ilmu Budaya: hope there will be no final exam :(
  • Gender and ELT: don't know yet what will be happened 

Yes! Those things are pressuring me lately. And it's will be happened until the very date of May 15, I suppose.

But, let's just struggle to survive! Even my life is on shuffle, even this acnes is soo annoying (lhoh?)
Ok ok. Seems like I'm blubbering :D
FIGHTING !!!!!


Accidentaly remember a nice thing :D
There is a (what is it called?!) let's say a small wall builded up with the identity of my faculty on it.
The front side is written "Fakultas Sastra", and in the back side written "Cerita Segala Rasa".
It is sooo nice and I've taken picture there! *giggles*
Here is my pictures with some of my college friends :)






Nice, yes? :D


4.21.2012

I am a BAD person

Do I have besties?
This thinking struck my mind. My life is not so briliant, my study, my work, all is just so so..
Sahabat itu apa?
Orang2 yang kemana2 selalu bareng kita? Yang tiap hari kita ceritain hal2 yang terjadi sama kita?
Is that so? Sempit banget pengertiannya. Kalo uda sering ga bareng, pasti lepas deh tuh sahabat.

I am galauing my self, I think.
I dont feel satisfied with my life. i dont feel happy with what i've done.
but how should i change all of this? it's so damn complicated. i cannot just turn around. it is not a game, it is a LIFE!!!

*sigh*

then, when i look around, people in my age are soooo freakingly success. they've done this, they achieve that. but why i'm not? hash! to much blubbering, i guess. too much planning but doing nothing. too much care with my own feeling. too much emotional.

*sigh*
I'm freakingly a bad person :(

4.13.2012

Something Called Friendship

As you know, in the very beginning of April, we have a long holiday. It was from April 6-8 :D
I was sooo interesting 'cause I have a plan to hang out with my besties :))
Thanks a lot to Bejo who has treated us to have free dinnner and sings in Inul Vista :)
You know, almost every single thing which related to close friends and somethings for free is always fun. And it was indeed fun!

edisi lengkap peserta makan gratis 

f3, mali, riho, gethuk, bejo, duwik, mamam, me :)

We planned to meet at Es Teller 77 in my hown town at 6.30 pm. Unfortunately, my friends did not have a good sense of being in/on time so that, as you all can guess, they just came very late (including me)! :D
When I arrived there, it was 6.45 if I'm not mistaken, and you know what, in that reserved-tables, there was just Bejo alone! -___________-

the girls, minus duwik

My friends started to gather around 7 pm. And all of the guests finally came at 7.30 pm. Oh, My!
I do not want to generalize or something like that, but that was really too much! What a jam karet, huh!

girls, minus nhox 
 It was really fun! We have a dinner 'till almost 9 pm. We really had quality time, even it did not personally having a good quality. We could laugh together , at least. And I'm happy :)

duwik should wear red costume as well, i guess :D

You need to know, friends, that I love you, that you are an important part of my live :)) :*

3.25.2012

Feel Like Dangerous


well, I do not why, but I feel I'm in the state of PMS.
it feels that whatever topic I try to develop in a conversation, it will just fail and that person get angry to me.
seems like it will be better if I stay away from people 'till my mood change.

but, how if the problem is in that person who always catch my wrong in every conversation we have?
seem I'm always wrong :((

3.22.2012

Cinta Pertama Saya

Di masa SMA saya, ada seorang remaja yang dipandang dewasa oleh para teman sebaya saya. Jika hanya sekilas saja melihat pemuda itu, pasti yang terlintas hanya sifatnya yang ndagel dan nglejing. Mungkin bisa dibilang bahwa pemuda itu adalah pemuka geng di sekolah saya. :D

Suatu ketika, tanpa saya sadari, I got crush on him. Alasannya simpel, dia merautkan pensil saya tanpa diminta, tanpa mengharapkan terima kasih. Ya. terjadi begitu saja, saya tercenung memandangi pensil dan cater karena tidak pernah bisa meraut menggunakan cater, dia merebut pensil dan cater dari tangan saya, merautkannya, memberikannya lagi pada saya, dan berlalu. Such a hero! :D

Lama waktu berselang setelah itu, kehidupan rupanya membawa saya lebih dekat lagi dengan dia. Kami tergabung dalam satu kelas, duduk pada meja yang bersebelahan, memiliki nomer absen yang jaraknya dekat (dia absen 26, saya absen 28) dan lain sebagainya. Lalu, kehidupan menawarkan kesempatan pada kami untuk semakin dekat lagi lewat taruhan ranking di kelas dengan imbalan mentraktir jenang madura jika saya menang, atau mentraktir chenil jika dia yang menang. :D

Singkat cerita, kami bersama :)
dan pemuda itu menitipkan banyak sekali impiannya kepada saya :)
tidak hanya itu, dia juga yang membantu saya mengoreksi diri menjadi sosok yang lebih baik dari hari ke hari :)
Memikirkan dia selalu penuh senyuman :)
dan besok, pemuda itu akan bertambah umur menjadi 22 tahun :)
usia yang matang dan produktif :)
terlalu banyak doa saya untuknya, tapi yang pasti, saya hanya ingin dia selalu bahagia, selalu baik-baik saja, selalu sehat :)

Selamat ulang tahun, pemudaku yang kini telah bertransformasi menjadi lelakiku :)
I love you, Panji Witoko :)


So sorry for my picture :D

3.20.2012

Life is a Choice


Well, this is a second time a blog this. Just now I type the content and it was just gone. Oh my God!
So I just start to type this again. Hopefully it will not dissapear again. :)

Hmmm.
Life is a choice. Sure, it is!

Just now life offers me an opportunity to go to Semarang to attend my aunty surprise party. In the same time, my young brother also needs me to help him study English to face national exam.

It is such a difficult choice. The chance to go to Semarang offers me a visit to Semarang water boom, go to the resort and stay there for a night, chats with my big fams till the morning come and so on and so on.

However, I seldom stay at home due to the my college stuff that forced me to stay in Malang. The time I have with my family, I don't think it has a good quality.

I try to say 'OK! I'll go to Semarang' to myself, but I don't feel please.
I try to say 'Fine, Let's just go home' and I don't feel happy either.
*sigh*

Then, after a-confusing-conversation with my beloved Mom, I made up my mind.
I'll go home, instead of having a trip to Semarang.
I'll have a great quality time with my fam, I'll help my brother to study English, I'll go to my grandma house, I'll go shopping, I'll meet my bestfriends. Well, there are so many fun things to do even I don't go there. :)

Hopefully this is not a wrong choice :)

Life gives me options, I choose, and I'm ready with the consequences :))

fiuhh! *what a relief*