3.31.2012

Broken-hearted: Betrayal


"Well, you know, he never say NO to me. He tries his best to make anything I want become true!"
"But he, my own boyfriend, hardly say YES to what I want. He dissapointed me a lot!"

I'm having three sad love stories and those are the sentence I exactly got from two of the stories.
It makes me wonder, is that LOVE if someone you like never say NO to you? Can you measure it just because someone always YES to all that you want?

It is all about betrayal. And having someone betray you is so bad. Freakingly Bad!
Do not even try it. DO NOT EVEN TRY IT !!!

It was once happen on me, and it seems last forever.
And now, having someone else told me their stories, it hurts! Deeply hurt me :((
*sigh* 
I'm sooooo UPSET !

3.30.2012

Listen, with your heart!



Would you please kindly listen my story with your heart?
I feel so bad when I recall it and you don't even remember anything :(
In case I thought you were very excited with my story :(
Please, listen to me, with your heart or better just say you do not want to listen my story :(
Then, I will leave.
I'm surely will leave :((

3.28.2012

Review of The Blogger's New Look

the dasbor of the new blogger's look
Well, this is the first post after I upgrade my blog into the up-date one. :)
Little bit confused at first (some part is still confusing for me for now on) with the setting, where is that thing? where are those things? and many others stupidity. :D

Today I also change my blogger template, and because of my green-state, it took me a half day to get to know how to change the template. -_______-
Thanks God it works, at last! *grin*

Hmmm, but the foolest thing was just happened!
The chronology was like this,
- go to my blog
- scrolling up and down, evaluating my new template
- think that I need to change something
- search for the home button, but couldn't find it
- get confused
- search again in the brand new template
- get confused again
- think that maybe it can be accessed from G+
- go to G+ and don't know what to do
- being a fool
- being a fool
- yes! I was being a fool
- then, I got idea to go to www.blogger.com
- AND I MAKE IT, FINALLY!!! hahahhaahaa :D

Thanks, God :))

So, for you, friends, please do not make a fool like me :)
it was freaking annoying, even to yourself!
Trust me! :D

3.25.2012

Feel Like Dangerous


well, I do not why, but I feel I'm in the state of PMS.
it feels that whatever topic I try to develop in a conversation, it will just fail and that person get angry to me.
seems like it will be better if I stay away from people 'till my mood change.

but, how if the problem is in that person who always catch my wrong in every conversation we have?
seem I'm always wrong :((

3.24.2012

The Influence of Break-dance in Indonesian Culture


Nowadays, many young people love to dance. At a glance, we can get the evidence from the increasing number of girl-bands and boy-bands in Indonesia. They entertain the society not only with their voices, but also with their dances. The dances they present in their performance are mostly a modern dance which is absolutely not a part of Indonesian culture. Furthermore, in society there are also an increasing number of modern dance communities, especially for the break-dance. An example can be taken from Kediri Regency, which is considered as a small country, there are more than three break-dance communities in that regency. However, there is a tendency that the increasing number of break-dance communities will displace the Indonesian dance. Therefore, in this paper, which is based on short observation, we will discuss more about the influence of break-dance and its position toward Indonesian traditional-new creation dance.


First, we will talk about what break dance is and where it came from. Based on Microsoftᆴ Encartaᆴ 2009, break dance is an acrobatic style of solo dancing to rap music, typically involving spinning of the body on the ground. Moreover, break dance is actually a branch of hip-hop which came from Bronx, a city in United States. In addition, based on the writer's interview with a break dance community, the person who does the break dance is called b-boy. The writer does not want to be sexist, but it is really called b-boy, even you are female. Moreover, those people who are interested to become a b-boy usually will gather in a community and have a self study of how to dance the break-dance appropriately among friends. An example can be taken from Kediri Rocking Reborn community in Kediri regency that the writer happened to have a chance to interview and observe them. This community is gathered every weekend in a public place called Simpang Lima Gumul Monument to learn together about the newest break-dance technique. They start to do the exercises and practice around 4 P.M but mostly other members usually come around 5 P.M. Furthermore, the members are varies from a little boy in the age of nine until young men in the age around 20 years old. Although this community is dominated with male, there are also some young women as the member of the community. From this short observation, we can simply think that this community offers freedom to the members. The only one thing which makes them become unite is the feeling of loving break-dance, perhaps.

Next, let us talk about Indonesian traditional-new creation dance. Based on Microsoftᆴ Encartaᆴ 2009, traditional means relating or based on the tradition. Therefore, the traditional-new creation dance here means the new creations of the Indonesian traditional dance. It means that there are artists making a new dance based on the traditional dance movement. The different between the new creation dances with the modern dances is that the traditional-new creation dances still use the traditional dance as the main sources of making new dances. Moreover, not only break-dance community, here the writer also have a short observation to the group of people who learned traditional-new creation dance in Kediri regency. It is a dance club named Sanggar Tari Kembang Sore in Kediri Regency. This dance club exercises every Sunday from 7.30 A.M to 5.30 P.M in a village public building. Furthermore, this dance club which is dominated with female students varies from the age of 3 to the age of 30 years old. It is also classified into some classes based on the age so that the students can learn better. The good thing in this dance club is that the students are having opportunity to become a dance trainer if they can pass a trainer examination held in Yogyakarta every period of time. The objective of holding this examination is to make traditional-new creation dance can be spread out faster and wider.

Moreover, in the correlation of modern break-dance with traditional-new creation dance is that the modern break-dance though it is something new which can enrich the Indonesian culture, it also makes the Indonesian dance, in this case of traditional-new creation dance, displaced. Furthermore, as an English language learner who has to learn the English culture, the phenomena of the increasing number of b-boy and break-dance communities happened in the society make the writer easier to experience a part of western culture. However, as a future language teacher, who has to introduce English culture whilst keeping the Indonesian culture stay alive, it will be hard to make the students aware of the important point of saving Indonesian heritage. It is because the media leads the young generation to think that modern break-dance is cooler than traditional-new creation dance. Furthermore, the hardest thing is to make the students' hearts move to keep Indonesian dance stays alive and not only regret and get angry when other countries claim Indonesian dance as them.
In addition, the influence of western culture in the form of modern break-dance in the society will make the foreigners who come to Indonesia cannot see clearly the Indonesian dance as a part of the Indonesian society. Then, there will be some confusion because the traditional and traditional-new creation dances will no longer able to represent Indonesian culture but just represents Indonesian life in the past time. Moreover, that is why the increasing population of modern break-dance communities is quite dangerous for Indonesian culture. As we know, the entertainment television programs nowadays are always looking forward to what is happening in the western country. An example can be taken from television programs which often show the modern break-dance performances; and it unconsciously helps the modern-break dance appears to be the coolest thing to be followed and learned. However, they forget to dig out what is good in our own country so that the great Indonesian dance is just buried away.

Then, the result for Indonesian society is that they will know the western culture better. Nevertheless, if we look further, we will see that actually learning traditional dance has many advantages such as the dancer will be more patient because when we dance a traditional or traditional-new creation dance, our soul will be in the peace state which is the same as we do a meditation. Not only make the soul become more peaceful, Kusumo (2004) as stated in Allo (2009) said that dancing used to be part of the education of an ideal character. In addition, for the Javanese, an ideal character would be one who can handle his emotion by having total control of his body movement and pattern of behavior. In the interpersonal relationship, the ideal character would always let the other person take the initiative, almost totally passive and be easily embarrassed if acted outside the norm.

Moreover, as a solution of the increasing number of modern break-dance community, it will be good if the media give more chance for the traditional and traditional-new creation dances to perform. It is because the writer considers the media as a powerful tool to lead the society into particular way of thinking. In addition, that will be good if there are more websites which explains and discuss about Indonesian traditional and traditional-new creation dance. The reason is nowadays there is just a few websites or blogs which discuss about Indonesian traditional and traditional-new creation dances so that the society finds difficulties when they want to know more about their own dances. Next, the government also has to facilitate and support the dancers to develop their skill. The facilitation and support can be in the form of holding traditional and traditional-new creation dance competition regularly with the nice reward for the winner; giving convenient place to practice; giving a set of gamelan and sound systems needed; and etcetera. Furthermore, if the advice is run well, hopefully the society will give more attention to the traditional and traditional-new creation dance, and want to learn it so that the Indonesian heritage can be keep safely.
In short, after knowing the origin of modern break-dance and traditional new-creation dance, we have a better knowledge of the position of modern break-dance in the Indonesian culture. Moreover, although it is good to have something new in our culture such as modern break-dance, it should not displace the Indonesian traditional and traditional-new creation dances. Furthermore, the media which is considered as the powerful tool to lead the society into a particular way of thinking should help the Indonesian dances to stay alive such as give the bigger portion for the traditional and traditional-new creation dances to perform than the modern break-dance. In addition, the government should give facilitation and support to the traditional and traditional-new creation dancers. Not only that, there should be more websites and blogs which discuss about Indonesian culture, especially traditional and traditional-new creation dances so that the society will get enough information when they want to know more about traditional and traditional-new creation dances. Thus, to avoid the confusion when Indonesian dances cannot represent the Indonesian society anymore; let us learn how to dance the Indonesian dance!

REFERENCES
Katherina Allo. 2009. Soul Searching - Shall We Dance? Tangerang: Pelita Harapan University
Microsoftᆴ Encartaᆴ 2009. ᄅ 1993-2008 Microsoft Corporation.

3.22.2012

Cinta Pertama Saya

Di masa SMA saya, ada seorang remaja yang dipandang dewasa oleh para teman sebaya saya. Jika hanya sekilas saja melihat pemuda itu, pasti yang terlintas hanya sifatnya yang ndagel dan nglejing. Mungkin bisa dibilang bahwa pemuda itu adalah pemuka geng di sekolah saya. :D

Suatu ketika, tanpa saya sadari, I got crush on him. Alasannya simpel, dia merautkan pensil saya tanpa diminta, tanpa mengharapkan terima kasih. Ya. terjadi begitu saja, saya tercenung memandangi pensil dan cater karena tidak pernah bisa meraut menggunakan cater, dia merebut pensil dan cater dari tangan saya, merautkannya, memberikannya lagi pada saya, dan berlalu. Such a hero! :D

Lama waktu berselang setelah itu, kehidupan rupanya membawa saya lebih dekat lagi dengan dia. Kami tergabung dalam satu kelas, duduk pada meja yang bersebelahan, memiliki nomer absen yang jaraknya dekat (dia absen 26, saya absen 28) dan lain sebagainya. Lalu, kehidupan menawarkan kesempatan pada kami untuk semakin dekat lagi lewat taruhan ranking di kelas dengan imbalan mentraktir jenang madura jika saya menang, atau mentraktir chenil jika dia yang menang. :D

Singkat cerita, kami bersama :)
dan pemuda itu menitipkan banyak sekali impiannya kepada saya :)
tidak hanya itu, dia juga yang membantu saya mengoreksi diri menjadi sosok yang lebih baik dari hari ke hari :)
Memikirkan dia selalu penuh senyuman :)
dan besok, pemuda itu akan bertambah umur menjadi 22 tahun :)
usia yang matang dan produktif :)
terlalu banyak doa saya untuknya, tapi yang pasti, saya hanya ingin dia selalu bahagia, selalu baik-baik saja, selalu sehat :)

Selamat ulang tahun, pemudaku yang kini telah bertransformasi menjadi lelakiku :)
I love you, Panji Witoko :)


So sorry for my picture :D

3.20.2012

Life is a Choice


Well, this is a second time a blog this. Just now I type the content and it was just gone. Oh my God!
So I just start to type this again. Hopefully it will not dissapear again. :)

Hmmm.
Life is a choice. Sure, it is!

Just now life offers me an opportunity to go to Semarang to attend my aunty surprise party. In the same time, my young brother also needs me to help him study English to face national exam.

It is such a difficult choice. The chance to go to Semarang offers me a visit to Semarang water boom, go to the resort and stay there for a night, chats with my big fams till the morning come and so on and so on.

However, I seldom stay at home due to the my college stuff that forced me to stay in Malang. The time I have with my family, I don't think it has a good quality.

I try to say 'OK! I'll go to Semarang' to myself, but I don't feel please.
I try to say 'Fine, Let's just go home' and I don't feel happy either.
*sigh*

Then, after a-confusing-conversation with my beloved Mom, I made up my mind.
I'll go home, instead of having a trip to Semarang.
I'll have a great quality time with my fam, I'll help my brother to study English, I'll go to my grandma house, I'll go shopping, I'll meet my bestfriends. Well, there are so many fun things to do even I don't go there. :)

Hopefully this is not a wrong choice :)

Life gives me options, I choose, and I'm ready with the consequences :))

fiuhh! *what a relief*

3.18.2012

The Art of Doing Assignment in the Day before the Deadline



Well, now I'm in the progress of doing my mid-term project to make a-1500-words-essay. It feels like 'Oh God! I'm stuck! i don't want to do this'. Phew! But I have to :'(
Actually I've tried to do it from two weeks ago, but I don't know, I just like do not have any idea to arrange my sources into a unite paragraph T.T






And now, 18 hours before the dateline, I force my self to do the assignment but I just simply cannot get focus. Yes, I'm blogging, yes I'm facebook-ing, yes I check twitter timeline and so on and so on. What a teenage life.

It seems like I need many people to pray for me to make me focus doing my assignment *okey I just exaggerated*

Hope I can publish my assignment as soon as possible. Amen.

3.15.2012

A Brief Review of Kimi Ni Todoke (From Me to You)

Well, here I’ll give you a little review about a Japanese movie I just watched. The title is Kimi Ni Todoke (From Me to You). Actually I’m not usually watching Japanese or others Asian movie. However, I’m in love with two of the main characters when I’m accidentally peek on my friends laptop.


This movie is taken from a manga with the same title, Kimi Ni Todoke. The main characters here are Kuronoma and Kazehaya. Kuronoma is a girl which is really kind but naïve. She is a very nice girl who always wants to help people from the back.. She even called as Sadako (the popular ghost in Japan) because of her long hair and her attitude which her head is always looked down. On the other hand, Kazehaya is a boy who is very popular in the school because he is really fun and nice. He loves to smile and laugh. Well, maybe we can say that he is charming




This is a simple love story, about Kuronoma and Kazehaya which are love each other but have to struggle to finally get along and going steady. The rumor that is spread by a girl who love Kazehaya almost make them cannot get along well. Furhermore, this is kind of simple story so as I expected, in the end both of them can make it happen.


This movie not only offers a love story between Kuronoma and Kazehawa, but also about friendship and a really good relationship between the students and teacher.

I’m not typically a person who cries over a movie, it’s rare for me. However, when I watched this movie, I can barely stop crying because the friendship scenes movie is really touching. :'(


Over all, I like this movie except the ending. This is because even though the ending is really happy, I think the scene needs to be explored more. this is a few dialog in the end of the movie.

Kuronoma: “I love you”
Kazehawa: “Me too. I always love you. This is like a dream. Finally I can have you. I’m very grateful we are together in this New Year eve. Hopefully we will always like this.
Kuronoma: (nod nod)
Kuronoma and Kazehawa: (laugh)
-  THE END -

Well, maybe this is because of the Japanese culture. But I cannot feel the joy of their love yet.However, for me this movie si worth to be watched. So, happy watching guys. :)

Correct me if I'm wrong :)

3.12.2012

Belajar Bahasa Asing dan Menikahi Budayanya

Pagi ini, setelah mengikuti kuliah Cross-Cultural Understanding, yang dosennya langsung dari Amerika, saya tergelitik untuk berpikir lebih jauh tentang esensi dari belajar bahasa.

Banyak orang bilang bahwa kalo pengen belajar bahasa asing, kamu harus mengenal juga tentang budayanya. Tidak ada yang salah sebenarnya pada kalimat tersebut. Akan tetapi, belajar bahasa asing sekaligus menikahi budayanya sama sekali tidak mudah untuk dilakukan. Kenapa? Karena tentu saja budaya  baru tersebut akan mempengaruhi budaya asli kita dan orang-orang di sekitar kita belum tentu akan dapat menerimanya dengan baik. Alih-alih menjadi hebat, hanya cercaan yang akan kita terima.

Contoh langsungnya ada pada pemakaian kata 'hello?'. Dalam percakapan dengan menggunakan bahasa Inggris, kata 'halo' bisa digunakan untuk menunjukkan ketidakpercayaan, keterkejutan, dan lain sebagainya.

A: Yesterday i go to the mosque and i was just wearing tank top and mini skirt.
B: Hello? You must be kidding!

terlihat natural kan? Itu karena kata 'hello?' juga berfungsi seperti 'what?' (coba kata 'hello'nya diganti 'what').

sekarang kita bandingkan dengan percakapan dalam bahasa Indonesia.

A: Lho, jadi tugas yang dimaksud dosennya kayak gitu ya?
B: Iya, dan .. hello? Sebenernya ga bisa seenaknya juga 'kan ngasi tugas.

terlihat seperti percakapan sinetron ya? :)

Dan hal-hal seperti ini lah yang di alami pembelajar bahasa asing. Bagi kami sangat biasa dan sudah terlembaga sebagai percakapan sehari-hari diantara sesama pembelajar bahasa asing. Tetapi bagi orang di luar komunitas pembelajar bahasa asing, pasti akan merasa geli dan berpikir bahwa kami terlihat sok.

Orang terdekat bahkan telah mengingatkan saya karena anggapannya bahwa bahasa saya seperti bahasa sinetron saat saya tidak sengaja memakai bahasa-bahasa informal yang telah terkontaminasi seperti contoh di atas.

Mungkin satu-satunya solusi adalah pembelajar bahasa asing benar-benar harus mawas diri terhadap siapa mereka berbicara dan juga mengontrol lagi ucapan-ucapan atau celutuk-celutuk yang berbau asing. Ini karena saya pikir, kita harus berbenah untuk membuat lawan bicara kita nyaman berbicara dengan kita dan tidak menjadi egois dengan berbahasa semau kita sendiri.





Correct me if I'm wrong. :)

3.10.2012

Sedikit tentang wisuda

Sedikit terinspirasi dari wisuda si tempat kuliah saya hari ini.
Ada sekitar 1400an mahasiswa dan mahasiswi berkumpul di Gedung Cakrawala UM.

Ada pertanyaan yang tiba-tiba menggelitik, kenapa para wisudawati harus tampil seribet itu ya?
Mulai dari make-up tebal yang ga biasa, kerudung penuh jarum pentul atau rambut penuh jepit dan bau hairspray, sandal atau sepatu berhak tinggi, dan banyak lagi keribetan yang lain.

Tradisi darimana sebenernya? Siapa yang mulai?
Kenapa para wisudawan bisa tampil sesantai itu dan para wisudawati rempong banget?

Is it true that it is kind of a value of being a woman? Or this is actually just kind of society's steretyping?

Sedangkan sekitar satu taun yang lalu, saya pernah secara tidak sengaja melihat seorang wisudawati yang berpakaian biasa saja dan memakai make up sehari-sehari dengan cueknya melepas toga dan berlari sehabis acara wisuda selesai. Terlihat berbeda, unik, namun inspiratif bagi saya.

Toh titik berat wisuda sebenarnya bukan pada kebanggaan pada dandanan, akan tetapi pada kebanggaan berhasil menyelesaikan masa kuliah dan skripsi.

Wondering, dibolehin ga ya pake baju simpel sama ibuk saya nanti waktu wisuda? o.O

Correct me, if I'm wrong. :) 

3.06.2012

A bit about my blog name

As you can see, my address is naangniel.blogspot.com

Well, it actually a blend of two words which are jenaang and chenil. What is that? Those which are from Indonesia, especially in Java, maybe know it perfectly. However, for the others outside Indonesia, I’ll try to explain what I have known about those words.

Jenang and chenil is kind of traditional foods in Indonesia, especially Java (or I guess every region has the similar food with different name?). Both of them have sweet favor, and the sweetness is basically come from the gula aren or sugar palm.

chenil

Why I choose that name, then? Well, basically I can say that those are me and my fiancée favorite traditional foods. Beyond that, there was a time when those foods become our nick name. Confused? So, I called him ‘naang’ from jenang; and he called me ‘niel’ from chenil. Yeah, it was quite weird, perhaps. But when you are in love, that kind of think can be so much fun and romantic. J



So, have you experienced having any nick name that come from food name, everyone? J

Introduction ...

hello, guys ...

I'm an English Pedagogy students and I'm new here :)

Well, let's talk a look what I can learn later :)

Ups, I'm forget to say, I'm from Indonesia. Yes! The country that has the famous Bali inside. :)

C-U later ...