The Pressure and The Joy for being a YOUTH

Well, I'm in the very end of sixth semester.
There are soooooooo many assignmentsss, final projects, presentations and so on which are waiting for me to be taken care -_____________-

Let me have a list of that stuff:

• Cross Cultural Understanding: final project is in progress, its 10% done, due date will be on April 30, 2012
• Basic Poetry Studies: there will be final exam in the form of analyzing poem. seems like the due date will be on May 14, 2012
• Basic Analysis of Drama: there will be drama performance on May 7, 2012. And I'm not memorized the script yet
• Thesis Proposal Seminar: the thesis proposal has to be submitted on the May 10, 2012. still 5% done
• Syntax: the final exam will be on May 15, 2012
• Classroom management: the final paper have to be submitted on May 1, 2012
• Languange Assessment Development: there are still like 100 questions need to be created. The due is on  May 15, 2012
• Coursebook Evaluation: the final paper+presentation are 90% done. the due date will be on May (dont know the absolute date)
• English for Spesific Purposes: ga jelas
• Filsafat Ilmu Budaya: hope there will be no final exam :(
• Gender and ELT: don't know yet what will be happened 

Yes! Those things are pressuring me lately. And it's will be happened until the very date of May 15, I suppose.

But, let's just struggle to survive! Even my life is on shuffle, even this acnes is soo annoying (lhoh?)

Ok ok. Seems like I'm blubbering :D
FIGHTING !!!!!

Accidentaly remember a nice thing :D

There is a (what is it called?!) let's say a small wall builded up with the identity of my faculty on it.

The front side is written "Fakultas Sastra", and in the back side written "Cerita Segala Rasa".

It is sooo nice and I've taken picture there! *giggles*
Here is my pictures with some of my college friends :)

Nice, yes? :D

I am a BAD person

Do I have besties?

This thinking struck my mind. My life is not so briliant, my study, my work, all is just so so..

Sahabat itu apa?

Orang2 yang kemana2 selalu bareng kita? Yang tiap hari kita ceritain hal2 yang terjadi sama kita?

Is that so? Sempit banget pengertiannya. Kalo uda sering ga bareng, pasti lepas deh tuh sahabat.

I am galauing my self, I think.

I dont feel satisfied with my life. i dont feel happy with what i've done.

but how should i change all of this? it's so damn complicated. i cannot just turn around. it is not a game, it is a LIFE!!!

*sigh*

then, when i look around, people in my age are soooo freakingly success. they've done this, they achieve that. but why i'm not? hash! to much blubbering, i guess. too much planning but doing nothing. too much care with my own feeling. too much emotional.

*sigh*

I'm freakingly a bad person :(

Walk off the Earth

Have you heard something about 'Walk Off The Earth' guys?

Poor you, if you do not hear anything yet!

Well, what can I say about this group instead of a 'WOW' and AMAZING!!!!

It is because they really are amazing!

You can check their music in this following link

Bet you will be amazed with their skill, too!

This is for him, even he will never read it

When I was in Senior High School, I have some best friends (yes, those who the photos just uploaded).

I was soo happy having them in my life. It was a strong friendship. It was tied up with laugh and tears. It was perfect. Everybody could be whatever they wanted to be. They could be them selves.


I always miss many things left behind.

However, time flies, people change. Yes. people change much!
We just busy with our self gradually. We just cannot handle to meet each other in a period of time.

It was sad. Sometimes I feel so bad.

Then now, one of them, people who I love so deeply with my heart, state that he does not want to be with us again. That he just want to get away from us.


Hey Mr. Perfect! You freakingly do not need to do that!
Don't you see that we rarely meet each other? Don't you see that we seldom text each other just to say 'hello'? Why you being so sensitive? We do not even talk about you when you were not around. There is no need to talk about your weaknees or bad things about others, when we just rarely can laugh together.


Oh, My! I hate you while I miss you as well!
Missing time when we laughed, missing when got a bad quarrel, missing when we cried after a long story we had.


Would you please to come back, pal?
I do not care about your life, but just come back. Just came back :((

Something Called Friendship

As you know, in the very beginning of April, we have a long holiday. It was from April 6-8 :D
I was sooo interesting 'cause I have a plan to hang out with my besties :))
Thanks a lot to Bejo who has treated us to have free dinnner and sings in Inul Vista :)
You know, almost every single thing which related to close friends and somethings for free is always fun. And it was indeed fun!

edisi lengkap peserta makan gratis 

f3, mali, riho, gethuk, bejo, duwik, mamam, me :)

We planned to meet at Es Teller 77 in my hown town at 6.30 pm. Unfortunately, my friends did not have a good sense of being in/on time so that, as you all can guess, they just came very late (including me)! :D
When I arrived there, it was 6.45 if I'm not mistaken, and you know what, in that reserved-tables, there was just Bejo alone! -___________-

the girls, minus duwik

My friends started to gather around 7 pm. And all of the guests finally came at 7.30 pm. Oh, My!
I do not want to generalize or something like that, but that was really too much! What a jam karet, huh!

girls, minus nhox 

 It was really fun! We have a dinner 'till almost 9 pm. We really had quality time, even it did not personally having a good quality. We could laugh together , at least. And I'm happy :)

duwik should wear red costume as well, i guess :D

You need to know, friends, that I love you, that you are an important part of my live :)) :*

Segala Sisi

Sering denger kata-kata "jangan-jangan ada banyak peluang di pintu lain, sementara kita terlalu lama merenungi pintu yang telah menolak kita"..

It really happens in our life actually. Terlalu lama melihat ke sebelah kanan, padahal banyak hal baik di sebelah kiri kita. 

Ada satu cerita dari liburan minggu lalu. Ceritanya saya mau beli kerudung paris di toko yang ada di kanan jalan; karena tau bahwa tokonya ada di kanan jalan, dari jauh saya sudah menatap ke arah kanan (arah selatan), ke toko tujuan. Dapet sih kerudung yang saya pengen, dengan harga IDR 14.000. Setelah pulang dan putar balik ke arah yang tadi saya lewati, saya kaget karena ternyata ada sebuah mobil yang sedang obral jilbab paris dengan harga IDR 10.000 di utara jalan. Saya ngapain aja tadi ya, kok bisa-bisanya ga ngeliat mobil itu tadi. Sedikit menyesal, andai saja pandangan saya balance, ga cuma liat ke kanan, tapi juga ke kiri jalan. Hmmmmm.

Ada lagi satu kalimat yang muncul dari pengalaman saya di kamar mandi tadi pagi. "Kadang kita merasa terlalu nyaman dan aman dengan lingkungan di sekitar kita, padahal, jika kita liat ke arah atas, mungkin saja ada bahaya yang mengancam. Liat sekelilingmu!"

tadi pagi waktu mau mandi, saya iseng ngeliat ke atas, ke plafon kamar mandi, dan kaget sebab di sana ada sarang laba-laba yang lumayan besar. Saya sudah bertahun-tahun tinggal di rumah itu, dan tidak pernah melihat sarang itu. It feels like I don't bother myself to check things around me. Hmmmmm.
Padahal bahaya mengancam. 

Sekali lagi, liat sekelilingmu. Do not stuck just in one direction! Do not feel too comfort with what you have!

A Man Who Can't be Moved

Well, i just found a song which is very deeply cross my heart.
This actually doesn't have nothing to do with my love story and so on.
But, when I listen to this song and comprehend the lyric, I just feel like 'Oh My! this is sooo saaad' :(

The tittle is A Man Who Can't be Moved by the Script.
Here is the lyric I got from azlyric,

Going Back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move
Got some words on cardboard, got your picture in my hand
Saying, "If you see this girl can you tell her where I am? "

Some try to hand me money, they don't understand
I'm not broke I'm just a broken hearted man
I know it makes no sense but what else can I do
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on the corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving

Policeman says, "Son you can't stay here"
I said, "There's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year"
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go

[Chorus:]
'Cause If one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving,
I'm not moving, I'm not moving

People talk about the guy that's waiting on a girl
There are no holes in his shoes but a big hole in his world

Maybe I'll get famous as the man who can't be moved
Maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news
And you'll come running to the corner
'Cause you'll know it's just for you
I'm the man who can't be moved

[Chorus 2x]

Going back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag, I'm not gonna move

I know this song from NYUNYU where Arief Mohammad a.k.a Poconggg sang that song :)

that was very nice and I'm in love with this song...